Fox River Derivatives by Peter Hoffman
Fox River Derivatives is a series that questions our relationship with our natural resources. The images are part of a larger experiment that utilizes water and fossil fuels in the actual image-making process.
Pediatric, the 15th, the last stage as co-assistant. Can’t believe that I’ll finish co-ass soon. Can’t believe it. And tomorrow I’ll have pediatric exam.
Setelah melakukan analisa terhadap beberapa komentar pembaca pada berita-berita yang berhubungan dengan kontroversi medis, kami memutuskan untuk merangkumnya dalam flowchart ini.
Feb 18th, 2013
Never ever thought before that finally the ‘day’ has come. The day when I wear hijab ( I swear it’s not delusional ). Alhamdulillah, thank God you finally gives me the bravery to wear it, shows me the bright path.
Actually, since a long time ago, I have the intention to wear it, BUT… too many reasons in my self that make me think, I haven’t ready yet to wear it.
So many reasons, I’m too afraid to wear it. The reasons are: I’m not ready yet, I can not wear it, my face is not suit to wear it, my ‘crazy-attitude’ that not so fit with the image of hijab’s girl, me who still love my bangs, my hair, me who love to wear t-shirt, me who think I’m tough enough and my wrong perception who think that people who wear hijab have a weak image, too girly, and others un-reasonable reason.
But deep inside myself, I want to wear it. Really.
And as time goes by, one by one many of my friends wear it. And then, my cousins too. People who way younger than me wear it. Actually all of those things make me worry, nervous, and dilemma. The urge to wear is growing bigger and bigger. But then again, I think I’m not ready yet.
There’s a battle in myself. Really confusing me, really. Since last year I’ve been very insecure.
I’m so shy to wear it. Again, I think. I shouldn’t shy to wear hijab, I should shy to NOTwear it. As my age is growing old, I should know my duty as a moslem to cover my aurat. Well, I know it, but still I didn’t cover it.
So one of my resolution in 2013 is: wearing hijab. I MUST be brave. To fulfill my duty, to do the most challenging thing ( for me wearing hijab is one the most difficult challenge to do ). If other people can do it, so can I.
Thank Allah, finally I can decide this hard and right decision. I hope you always remind me to wear it and change me to a better person. Maybe I’m not a perfect moslem, but I’m trying to be a good one :’)
So, in Feb 18th 2013, I wear hijab. Bismillahirrohmanirrohim, may Allah supports me every time. I hope I can wear it well, insya Allah.
And thank you to my parents, cousins, and all of my friends who support me, congrats me, give me prizes, you are the best friends. I’m happy to have friends like them who always support me, give me so many advises. The best people!
But I’m still me. The newborn me, the same person, same face, but different outfit, but I’m trying to be a better person. I hope I can always be istiqomah, like most of my friends said to me :D
Ok, i think it’s enough for my confession. My first resolution: achieved!